I am handicapped by the left side of my brain.
This is not my own concept, this as been discussed many
times, I have to admit I read through a post in search of something, as an
answer to my own failing and find a bit of encouragement. I guess today I really
needed that. So read the post before I continue.
Don’t point its rude.
Man did that hit me! I mean look at me the way I dress and
act. Someone asked for something the other day, something I was in total wonder
about they wanted “that Chas” in the images. For those that know me they, if
you aren’t still laughing please feel free to fill others in. For those that
haven’t had the moment of humor let me help you with a few of my favorite
quotes as to what I am like. Quote “Just cross a Hippy with Einstein, Master
Shefu looking and acting Misfit”. I dress the same as I did in the early 70’s
ratty old jeans, blank baseball tee’s or old beat-up pull over’s, Don’t get me started over my hair, it’s
simple I treat it the same as then.
It is funny really, at the same time it is all too real.
There are so many places, websites, book’s, blogs about this. The reason for
that, being a misfit has its dangers, it is lonely, I get put on a pedestal
only to fail when I am needed the most.
I am a misfit; Seriously its kind of hard not to stick out
for me, I mean I can set and ponder the working of the universe all the while
doing lighting physics in my head, and
encouraging someone through something I already failed at.
Socially I fail most of the time, my passions, the very
strengths of my “vast” experience comes form being troubled. A lone, unable to
be like others, things the article missed are “how do I deal with those
pointing fingers”. Life on the edge, it’s been called. On the edge of what?
Yes I have that normal life appearance, every one of my
relationships I hold very dear. I don’t know how they put up with me, most
don’t or won’t, the stories they share put the seal of approval on my misfit
status.
For the ones that don’t or won’t they still point figures
and want me to live to what they expect, I wish I could help them with that, I
wish I would have enough courage to say I will grow on them, lol I don’t. So
what can or do I say, “Get over it I already did.” That is and has been my
social shield. It is easy to say you do not like me, when I take the careless
in your face road of honesty. It is also a time thing. I will be all the way
out near Saturn’s Moons I will say something in careless honesty, it will hurt.
Get over it I already did. You will or you won’t. All I can say is oops. Alas
my handicap.
I would not want to say this explains me, that would be rationalizing
the fact that I am a misfit. Nor anything close to how I behave, or the life I
live. There is a lot, as this article said a lot.
